Needless to say, I've been extremely tired from stress (learning as I go, a completely new job that I was trained on superfast, and doing my old one).
To Be Continued...
The Friday of my co-workers last day, we shut the office down early and went out for drinks. I couldn't go all out because I was driving 3.5 hours to go see S.
Prior to even finding out about the job, S and I had a fight. Essentially he was stressed out over money and job stuff, but I
Communication is huge in a relationship. As far as I'm concerned, if you don't have communication, trust and love, you have nothing. I've been in two very long relationships where there was poor communication and I absolutely refuse to do that again. I summed it up for S and told him that if he couldn't communicate with me, we didn't need to be together.
Since that fight, I felt like things hadn't really been the same between us. I had actually told him that I didn't want to come up (the weekend of my co-worker's last day) because he was supposed to have friends in town and I thought he and I needed one-on-one time. I suggested going up the weekend before his friends would be there. We talked and he wanted me to still come that weekend. So after the going away drinks, I went to see him. I was absolutely exhausted when I got there. We had a nice weekend, but I would have honestly much rather been at home relaxing because I was working to the max all that week trying to train. I don't let a lot of things interfere with my sleep, and I hadn't gotten much of it because I knew I had to get what I was going to be doing.
We have definitely been fighting more. Distance is hard. Added stress of a job, and an hour time difference does not help any. Plus if you factor in I've been exhausted and wanted to do nothing but sleep..well that leaves little time for him.
I'm not sure where exactly this puts us in our relationship. Every thing happens for a reason and I truly believe that. Even if you don't know that reason at the time. All I know to do is to pray about everything and know that in time, the Plan will be revealed...